Tuesday, October 25, 2011

Cancer Is Costly

As most of you are aware, I am receiving treatment and care from TX. I take an oral medication 4 times daily in addition to the other injection and infusions I receive. I speak with my Primary Dr. in Houston at least once or twice a week. And they are constantly keeping watch over my progress. This however does not come cheap. They have been absolutely amazing in working with us as far as payment goes. As of now, they foresee me being on this medication which I fully believe in, for the next 5 or 6 months. I am also paying OUT OF POCKET for the injection I receive for the bone mets. So here is the breakdown.

.Monthly costs for medication and managed care from Houston: $4,500

.Monthly Injection: $1,900 (some of which we hope to be refunded within the next 6 months)

A total of $6,400

This is staggering, I know! Which is why my family and friends have so graciously given their time to coordinate numerous benefits and fundraisers! Our latest being an Auction Nov 5th!

I have been troubled lately by all of the "Pink" products lining the shelves EVERYWHERE. I realize people are meaning to genuinely be working toward a "Cure" when they purchase these products. However, the sad truth is that a LARGE portion of the proceeds don't go towards research or supporting Cancer in any form in "most" cases. This is disturbing and unforunate to think that our hard earned dollars are not being used for the purpose we believe they are. So my plea is this, before you give of your time or money do your research. Make sure that you are giving to and supporting a worthy cause.

This brings me to my next point. Support someone you know directly if you can. There are many individuals out there testing the waters and searching for their own "Cure", when others have "given up" on them. Why not support someone locally?

Here is the information about the Auction coming up! I would greatly appreciate your support in forwarding this information and coming out if you can!

Monday, October 24, 2011

Glass Case of Emotion

I like to make plans. I like having a good idea of how things will play out, it gives me a sense of calm and control. And when things fall apart or don't go as planned, I get a little "stressed out".

Perfect example, last Wed. I went in to get the results of my latest PET scan. The previous scans 3 months prior, looked fantastic! With significant improvement. So naturally I expected these scans to be none the less fantastic. Well that assumption would be wrong.

The Dr. used the word "stable". No worsening, but not much improvement to note. He postponed my treatments for that day and sent me home to "think about things". Now granted, my Dr.'s in TX still have not seen the scans at this time. So we have no idea what the radiologists there has to say. But I did not like the way I felt leaving that place. There was this nagging feeling of defeat almost. Like someone threw a big ole wrench in my plans. But at the same time an even bigger feeling and little voice saying "nope this isn't good enough, you will not accept this". I feel like I have been living in a "Glass Case of Emotion". Ron Burgundy, you ain't got nothin' on me;) At this point we are still waiting to hear what TX says and then decide where to go from here.

After having a mini pity party for a few days, I came to the conclusion that as long as I have breath, I am going to make each day count. The future can be scary. And fear of the unknown can be equally as scary. But this old hymn I used to sing as a kid at Church comes to mind.

I don't know about tomorrow,
I just live from day to day.
I don't borrow from it's sunshine,
For it's skies may turn to gray.
I don't worry o'er the future,
For I know what Jesus said,
And today I'll walk beside Him,
For He knows what is ahead.

Many things about tomorrow,
I don't seem to understand;
But I know Who holds tomorrow,
And I know Who holds my hand.

So with my faith restored and somewhat renewed strength thanks to no more chemo, I set out to enjoy my wknd! It turned out to be a fabulous wknd! We took our girl to the Pumpkin Festival and had a really great time! It does my heart good to see her smile and have a good time!