Saturday, April 30, 2011

Fundraiser Success!

I continue to be astounded by those who love and support me, and also by those that I do not even know personally who have blessed me greatly! The Yardsale was a HUGE success! It was started at 7, and at 2 o'clock people were still coming by! I heard several say they have never seen such a great turnout for a Yardsale. I was simply amazed at the love and support shown by those of my home church. People that have known me my entire life, there supporting me 150%! I am one blessed girl.

Ongoing Online Fundraising
I wanted to make everyone aware of some other Online Fundraisers that are ongoing. I have placed links to all. You can find them on the left hand side of this blog.

The first is a Thirty One Party! My dear friend Jayme is a consultant for this wonderful Faith based company. She had the brilliant idea to have a Thirty One Fundraiser! I will recieve 100% of all the proceeds which is 25% of all sales for my treatment fund! Check the link for details and shopping!

Secondly, a sweet friend from High School makes handmade Jewelry. She offered to make some special pink peices for my cause. She is very talented and her jewelry is beautiful. All of the proceeds will benefit my treatment fund. The link is also provided.

Thirdly, a friend from church that I grew up is friends with an amazing local Photographer. During the next two weeks she will be giving my friends, family, and any compassionate strangers the chance to help ease my financial burden by donating $50 to enter a photo contest. 100 % of the money collected will be given to my cause at the completion of the contest! See also the link provided.

Thursday, April 28, 2011

Fundraiser This Weekend in Riverview!

Good Thursday to everyone!

We have one of our first Fundraisers coming up this weekend. If you love Yardsales and live in the Tampa area or close vicinity, then come on out!

My dearest friend and some close friends from my home church will be having a benefit yardsale to raise funds for my treatment! Please feel free to come out!

When: Saturday April 30th 7:30 AM to 2PM

Where: 11920 Sugarberry Dr.
Riverview, Fl 33569

Tuesday, April 26, 2011

Finding Hope & Healing In Houston

To say the last few days have been overwhelming would be an understatement. What was supposed to be exciting and informative quickly turned to unsettling and confusing.

We arrived in Houston Sunday night after a rough flight. Both of us ended up getting just a couple hours of sleep. My consultation was the following morning at 10. We arrived and were greeted by the most accomodating people. Taken to the 2nd floor and given a detailed intinerary for the day.

First my vitals were taken. Then we met with My main Dr., Dr. Larisa. She was warm and kind and seemed genuinely concered for me. She spent about an hour going over my history in detail with us. After gathering all my information she left the consult room to confer with Dr. Burzynski, Dr. Gregory Burzynski and My Oncologist Dr.Valladares. We were expecting her to return within 15 minutes. 45 minutes later the previously mentioned Dr.'s entered the room. Dr. Burzynski spoke to us in detial, looking us straight in the eye the entire time. There was alot of information to take in and so many questions to be asked. In short, he is very confident that given the fact that I have had no previous treatment that would have compromised my health, and am in considerably good health otherwise, he fully expects me to recover from this and not have to face it again in the future.

First and foremost there is a myriad of tests that have to be done. The test that will take the longest to get results will take 2 to 3 weeks. He has a proposed treatment plan and list of medications for me. However he wants to gather all the information from the test as to make sure that he is not giving me unnecessary drugs. It is of the utmost importance to him that he do the best thing for me. All of my bloodwork was done yesterday. When I return home I will need to have an MRI of the brain. Once he recieves all of my results, he will then decide which regimen best fits me.

When I return in appox. 2 to 3 weeks, I will be staying for 10 to 14 days. In that time they will begin my treatment here. Monitor me and slowly up the dosage to the desired and tolerable amount.

The test alone are ridulously expensive. Some hopefully will be covered by Medicaid. Others we will be responable for. Between the money issue and the aggresive treatment plan, we were overwhelmed. We needed sleep and food. So we decided to go back to our Hotel and think about it and sleep on it.

This day was filled with more tears and emotions than I was prepared to deal with. I have only experienced these kind of feelings one other time, when my closest and dearest friend was killed in a car accident. It was too much to take. I was hoping to come and get the answers I wanted and that they would be obvious. This didn't happen. I was crushed and felt defeated. I have a tendancy of setting my expectations too high in situations. I wrestled for a while back and forth, trying to get everyones opinion and make the right decision. But ultimately it's my decision, and it came down to this, I HAVE CANCER, and its a very aggresive type of cancer that is not slowing down. If I dont do this, by body will fail me. This cancer has to be delt with aggresivly and swiftly. And I fully believe that this man wants me well. And has the best plan to accomplish it.

So after much prayer on my part and the part of countless freinds and family, plus much needed sleep, I awoke to a new morning and a new heart. I lost the peace I had temporarily, but it was restored with the morning. The crazy thing is I awoke Tues. morning with the song "You Never Let Go" in my head. Funny how that works:) We returned to the clinic that morning to move forward. As we walked in Dr. Larisa welcomed us and when she saw me and realized I was back, she let out the biggest sigh of relief and said to me "Oh thank goodness you've returned"! At that moment I knew that these people, without a doubt really cared about ME and getting ME well. Eveything from that moment on went so smoothly.

I was able to start on the first medication, the Antineoplastons Tues. We extended our stay one more night so that they could monitor me and make sure that I would have no side effects. If no effects then we are free to return home Wed. Our flight leaves at noon.

This is not going to be easy and I am bound to have really tough times ahead of me. But I know this is what must be done to ensure that I am here for my daughter! So although I am scared to death about what the future holds as far as treatment, I know God has never and will never leave my side. So I am putting my big girl pants on, placing my trust in Him, and we are going to get this done! I WILL get through this and come out the other side healed and better for it! So keep up the encouraging words please! They will help to get me through what lies ahead! I love you all and am so thankful that you allow me to share this journey with you!

Saturday, April 23, 2011

New Donation Info

I wanted to update everyone on the Donation situation. We have created a separate account in my name with Suntrust Bank, specifically for my Treatment Fund. We wanted to give everyone another option in addtion to the Pay Pal option. For those who may not be comfortable doing a transaction online. I will provide the account name and our mailing address for those interested in donating this way. Thanks so much for the support! If anyone has any questions regarding this, please email me at

Account Name: Kelli Kremkau

Mailing Address:
6912 Waterbrook Ct.
Gibsonton, Fl 33534

Thursday, April 21, 2011

The Power of Thought

Be careful of your thoughts, for your thoughts become your words.
Be careful of your words, for your words become your actions.
Be careful of your actions, for your actions become your habits.
Be careful of your habits, for your habits become your character.
Be careful of your character, for your character becomes your destiny.

I have heard this all my life, but never really applied it until recently.
It is a known fact that stress kills. Stress, anxiety and depression will take over your life. It will rob you of true happiness. I know because I have lived this. At one time anxiety controled every part of my life. Every moment of the day I allowed it to take over me. I may have been good at hiding it most of the time, but those who knew me well, knew that I was suffering. I always believed that it was just the way I was made, and I would be this way forever. Its not easy for me to speak about these things. But I know alot of people struggle with these things daily. And being open and honest about it here keeps me accountable.

I lived this way for many years. I wanted so deeply and more than anything to give it up to God to let it all go, to just be that carefree sprit that I saw in so many of my friends. To just change my thought process. And many times I tried desperately. But until recently my attempts were to no avail. It was only until I was so completely exhausted and worn down, crying, screaming out to God, that it happened for me. I finally said, Ok God this is bigger than me and I can't take this anymore. When someone tells you have Cancer it changes things. It can stir up a fear inside that makes all the other fears seem so miniscule. I was at the end of my rope. So that night I turned it over to Him. I really let Him take it from me. This is not mine to carry. Why should I think that He can't handle my circumstance? He holds the world in His hands. It was then and only then that I felt a weight lifted off me. A weight that I had been carrying for far to long.

Ok so I went off on a little tangent there:) The point of this post is to share how my thought process caused me to endure things brought on by stress that could have been avoided if I'd only learned to filter my thoughts. Alot of times I was a negative nelly, debbie downer. I tried to convince myself I wasn't, but hey I was. I would get into this habbit of thinking the absolute worst in every situation. If we focus on the negitives enough, those things will come to pass.

I have learned to really filter everything that comes into my mind. If its even remotely negitive, before I even entertain it, I shut it out. Leave it there. It's hard and you have to train yourself to think this way. But I promise when you learn how to do this, the everyday things that seem so heavy and impossible will fall away. It sounds so silly and simple, but just think happy thoughts. Focus on the blessing in your life. For instance the fact that you are breathing. The fact that you can feel the warmth of the sun on your face. The list goes on. We all face trials and go through hard times. But its the way that we respond to those things thats builds our character.

So see, your thought process has such a huge impact of the quality of your life. So next time that negitive thought tries to creep in, block it out. And move on to positive thoughts. Positive thoughts yeild positive results. Your body and your spirit will thank you. Not to mention those around you!

Wednesday, April 20, 2011

Give Your Body a Fighting Chance

When you hear the word diet, what usually comes to mind? I know for me I always associated it with fads or losing weight. There is always some new "diet" or way to get skinny quick scheme that usually ends up doing more harm than good. This is the accurate definition of "Diet": (a particular selection of food, especially as designed or prescribed to improve a person's physical condition or to prevent or treat a disease.) When it becomes more about a lifestyle and less about being thin or losing wieght, thats when it sticks. Losing weight is just an added bonus!

My closest and dearest friend has always been so health conscious. Even in High School she always had the healthiest lunches. I would be eating fries with ranch dressing and she would have her salad and a water. I used to poke fun at her constantly. Well let me just say that I now enjoy me some salad and water!

How did I get there? Well it didn't happen over night. I have been aware for years that my diet was not what it should be. I love me some sugar and have a hard time living without my soda! But I realize that in order for my body and mind to become healthy and function the way it was meant to, I must put the right things into my body.

After my diagnosis in 2009 I became acutley aware that something needed to change. I made some changes, but didn't stick with it the way I should have. Here's the thing that we have to realize it can't just be a fad or a temporary thing. If we want to get serious about being healthy and feeling good, it MUST become a way of life. I don't clame to have it all figured out. And there are some days when I sneek a little....just a little!

There are many different ideas out there regarding the right way, and the right things to eat. I have done my research and have taken ideas from a couple different diets. One is called the "Gerson Therapy" and the other is "The Hallejuah Diet". Both of these are centered around the idea that in the begining we were given specific instructions as to what to eat. If you need a reference, here you go (Then God said, “I give you every seed-bearing plant on the face of the whole earth and every tree that has fruit with seed in it. They will be yours for food.Genisis 1:29) I'm sorry to say, but there is nothing in there about Cinnabons and Ho Ho's:) You have no idea how tough it is for me to walk past the sweets isle in the store. All I want to do is rip those twinkies off of the shelf. But I speak from experience when I say this, once we start eating the fruits and veggies and things that we were meant to eat, our bodies tend not to crave that stuff. Some of us can eat horribly all our lives and be lucky enough to be in great health. Others like myself can't get away with that. And I've come to realize that there are more important things in life than getting my sugar fix:)

Like I said previously, I am a work in progress and don't always make it through the day without caving just a bit. But I would say that I am well on my way to getting where I need to be. I'm rather proud of myself and hope to convince my husband that is the best way to acheive optimal health. He actually called me the other night with the hopes that I would talk him out of going to Wendys after work and just have a salad. He did good. Drove right past Wendys and came home with a salad! It's not an easy change. For some it has to be gradual. But for me it had to be more drastic. I have all intentions of making this a way of life for me and my family. The saying is true "If you want to get good out, you must put good in".

Sunday, April 17, 2011

Acknowledging His Presence

I have been finding myself at a loss for words constantly this weekend. God has revealed Himself to me in SO many ways in the last 48 hrs. I know I shouldn't be so suprised at His ability to be in everything, everywhere. But He just keeps blowing me away. I have been blessed beyond belief. I have seen things that could only be by the work of His hand, heard things that I know where His words meant for Me.

The elders of the Chruch prayed over me this morning, which was moving to say the least. Then our incredable Pastor gave one of the most affirming messages I have ever heard. Pastor Greg never ceases to amaze me with his ability to bring God's word. I leave that place every week feeling like God is speaking directly to me. But today was just crazy (for lack of a better term)! I am having a hard time taking it all in honestly. I have this excitement and enthusiasim for life and God that I have never felt before. I can't explain it. I just feel Him all around me. The things that I once feared the most are no longer even so much as a passing thought. The things that seemed to be such a big deal, are now so trivial.

I'm learning that it's so important to praise God not only when we're on top of the mountain, but equaly as important to praise him and glorify him in the valley, in the dessert, through the storm. He is our Hope! Our only Hope! He can do the impossible, we just have to believe Him for it. If we surrender to Him and give it all over to Him, he will bless us in ways we could never of imagined. Give us new eyes! He ultimately gets all the glory, and we get the blessing!

Wednesday, April 13, 2011

Fund Raising and General Info

We have had an outpouring of Fund Raiser ideas! I wanted to let everyone know what our plan is as far as that goes and "The Plan" in general. Brian and I will be heading out Easter Sunday to Houston. My consultation is Monday. I've been informed that if I choose to, I may be able to stay and begin my 3 week treatment stay in Houston. However the initial cost to cover all my geneitc testing and initial treatment is around $15,000. We want to make sure we are able to cover it before I plan to stay. I would obviously like to begin ASAP, but I think it makes more sense to get all the information we need, come home and get some fund raisers going and make sure certian things are taken care of. Brian needs to inform work of his plans and I need to make sure that my mom is well enough to care for Samantha while I am gone. She just had spinal surgery 3 and a half weeks ago and is fighting Pneumonia right now. So I dont want to overload her. Brian will plan to stay with me for the first week, and my sister is planning to come out for a week also. Once my initial treatment in Houston is over I will return home with my medication that will be administered daily. We won't know how long I may have to be on treatment. It all depends on how well I respond. It could be as short as 4 months or up to a year. As far as cost goes it could be anywhere from $4,000 a month to $11,000. Altogether total treatment may run anywhere from around $50,000 to upwards of $150,000, depending on the length and intensity of treatment. We will have a much better idea once we return from my consultation and will pass that info along. Once again I dont even know how to express my gratitude for all of your support! I love you all and feel totaly blessed!

How To Disable Music Player

Hi Everyone!
First of all thank you for the overwhelming response! I am blown away by your support! I wanted to let everyone know that if you are having trouble watching any of the videos due to the background music, simply go to the very bottom of the page and click pause on the Music Player. It is set to automatically play, but you have the option to pause it. Hope that helps!

Tuesday, April 12, 2011

Clinic Tour and Patient Cases

My Anthem

The Road That Led Me Here

As most of you know, I was diagnosed with Tripple Negative Breast Cancer in 2009. I had surgery in Oct of that year and recovered with great results followed by great results at all of my 6 month check ups. That was until the last one. Some of my blood work came back abnormal and I had what seemed to be something more than scar tissue show up. After many many test and endless waiting it has been determined that it has returned. I met with my Oncologist today to go over the results of my PET scan and Bone Scan. It appears it has spread to 4 axillary nodes and the mammary node. There is also a suspicious spot on my right hip at the top of my pelvic bone. Now before you start to feel sorry for me, please dont:) I still feel great, and although this is not good news my faith has not wavered and has only grown stronger! I believe God has a plan for me, and through his divine providence I will eventually realize what that plan is.

My Dr. was very upfront with us and told us that if I follow the available treatment plan, the Cancer would almost always return. Given the aggressive form of Cancer I have. In all honesty I dont have much faith in conventional Cancer treatment, especially with the diagnoses I was given. I believe God has a better way. And I believe I am on the right road to finding healing. A few months back I "stumbled" upon something that I believe was meant to be. It was an eye opening documentry of an amazing Dr. in Texas who has perfected a treatment for Cancer. I have done extensive research and soul searching and believe this is the place for me. They have sucessfully cured many people with Cancer and women in my situation. I cant explain the peace and knowing that this is right, but it just is. I am completely convicted that this is the road I should take. My family and close friends are on board and support me 200 percent.

The treatment is costly and not all insurance covers it. But it pales in comparison to conventional treatment, being about one fifth of the cost of conventional treatment . It is a FDA approved clinical trial as of this year. Brian and I will be heading to Texas for a consultation with 20 plus Drs. Monday April the 25th to go over all of my previous records and test results. Once I agree to treatment I will head back to Texas where I will stay for 2 to 3 weeks to began my treatment. Once again it is very costly and most all of the funding with be coming out of pocket which we dont have, but I believe God will provide.

This is a journey I never thought I would have to take. But in the midst of what many would consider a tragedy, I feel completely at peace. Through this I feel like I have been given new eyes. I view life very different now. I plan on continuing to give God all the glory through this process. Without my faith in Him and his guidence I would be a lost sheep. Thank you all for the relentless prayers and thoughts. You will never know what your support means to me. I feel so blessed to be surounded by such amazing family and friends. I love you all!